This is Not Robert Longshore - The Memoirs of the Fulcrum of Fate

I am somewhere I do not know .  But the scene is a motif I recognize well:  The in-side of a parrish church, by the look of it. Apparently the middle of a moonless night, it would be too dark to give my sudden confines fair description with so much as a candle. There is not so much as a candle's-worth of illumination in here. But there is enough for me to make out the forms of two people near one of the transepts. In whatever way I can be said to do so, I make my way near to them – likewise careful not to be noticed. Getting as close as I dare – for reasons I dare not consider – I can see them more clearly now. Two priests are speaking in hushed tones. As it turns out, the one who is facing me – a man with a fat face, his chins wrinkling their way down the neck of his alb like a flesh ascot – does indeed have a single candle. Its light seems dim even to my incorporeal eyes, as though the sphere of illumination were somehow smaller than it should be. “ You wrote that you hav...

Audio Version   We turn now to the Present position and the Seven of Swords. This one is going to be a little bit different from the last one - which was a little different from the six before it.. Here are my notes - and some real-time reactions to them as I made my tenth or eleventh pass through them two days ago, now: (Quotations from Labyrinthos.com) You may be tempted to sneak away from somewhere [like Twitter and my blog and all my creative endeavors and my life and my relationships], indicating a situation that is no longer working as expected. Instead of dealing with it, you choose to sneak away and hope that you will go unnoticed. [I have often wondered whether my past, forfeited attempts at “art” as such have left people wondering why I quit and wanting more]. Perhaps you were hoping that this issue would just resolve itself over time, and you've neglected it – leaving it to only grow and get worse. [That could be a definition for addiction or addictive personalit...

The shortest one yet!                         Dissatisfied, so to speak, I determined to draw again. Putting my mind in a sort of temporary Zen Space, I cleared my head of all thought – wiped away all want and desire, but most specifically any questions for the Cards. I drew with the same three-card setup. For this one, I got The High Priestess, Seven of Swords, and Reversed Two of Wands. For these I took my notes differently. Let's be real: It was at this point that I realized I was having an experience I should record. But I was also getting bored with the walls of text that are the interpretations of these cards. I can imagine you know something of what I'm feeling after six posts of nothing but crenelated walls and towers to the tune of nearly 13,000 words. I didn't take anything from the descriptions of the cards themselves. Whether I didn't see anything in them or what I was seeing was too obvious, I'm not sure....

  I like what I did on Friday, so I'm going to do that as an exercise and maybe what will be tomorrow's PLog. When I was at the height of my powers, before my most recent precipitous coming-to-earth, I was keeping a list, I guess, of topics I wanted to work through but hadn't thought enough about to have any thoughts worth sharing. To Block or Not to Block  was one of them. Here are the others: There are an infinitude of legitimate problems that can be solved with time, attention, and energy. And an infinitude of resources to go around if we restructured and reorganized the world in such a way that every human person were actually able to live freely. Thoughts are not trains. Some of them are projectiles, though. Words can have an infinite number of meanings. Infinite possibility. That anything is anything at all is a miracle. Philosophy is in books for a reason. Not always written. Written worse. For the discipline as a whole? Sometimes my no...

  It was probably months ago, now, but I saw someone Tweeting about the Block button. I was inspired by their musings enough that I wrote them down, but never followed through on my thoughts with them. The original idea was that they would make a great two-pages for a PLog entry. Then I found that I wasn't sure I had as much to say on the topic as I originally thought – and then my attention turned to other projects. This is something like the OP: “Thinking tonight about the “block” feature, both as a social media tool and a way of setting a firm boundary. Dick move? Violent act? Healthy tool of self-preservation? I typically only block if it's clear that a proper discourse or conflict resolution won't be possible – in other words, when it feels like I'm wasting my energy. I think the internet has conditioned us to continue to engage with folks past the point of productivity, because the algorithm feeds on dissent and conflict.” Before today I haven't often u...